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     As of now, I'm a novice when speaking Japanese. I can hold a very basic conversation with help and can point out certain characters off the top of my head. It isn't the best of course, but I have only been learning for a few months as compared to others who have been learning for years now. I'm sure with enough time and constant practice I'll be better at speaking it. With any new thing I learn I have anxiety about performing well and making sure I'm learning at the right spot, but I am happy with how far I've come. I have to remind myself of that.

    I also speak Spanish, so the amount of things to remember now is triple. A bit of a complaint but that would be a given. Learning Spanish was a multiple-year process, even growing up surrounded by people who spoke it and learning it "in the field". Even then, I couldn't speak it too well, but I could understand what was being said to me. Japanese, I feel, will be much like that, where I'll learn better when exposed to it during daily life and interactions and eventually will get to a spot where I can understand it fluently.

    In the future, I want to be able to speak Japanese with confidence. I want to get to a point where I don't feel as pressured and scared to speak out of fear of embarrassment. Sometimes you have to roll with the punches, you learn from mistakes of course. I don't know if I could speak Japanese fluently in my lifetime truthfully, just confidently enough to get my point across, like how I am with speaking Spanish. I can speak just enough to hold very basic conversations or at least get my point across.